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Date: 2010-07-09 03:52 pm (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
I'm so frustrated with my addiction to the internet. I want to focus on school, having a social life, SLEEPING, and doing other much more productive things. But whenever I get scared or uncertain, I fall back into mindlessly surfing the internet. I'm really disgusted at myself for that and I wish I could stop it but I've been highly unsuccessful so far. Stupid addiction :(

Also, I wish I could tell my family about my internet family but...that wouldn't turn out well at all. My parents are way too biased and think that everyone online is a rapist/has bad intentions. I have so many good memories with my internet family (or group or whatever) and so many stories that I want to share with my mom but I can't. I'd like to meet some of them too or mail them stuff but I would never be able to without my parent's approval. I wouldn't meet every random person on the internet of course, just those that I have known for 2+ years and highly trust. I'd like to tell my mom of my friend in Columbia who has helped me so much with my spanish work. I'd like to tell her about my friend from Canada who's like my eccentric big sister who's really talented at art and doing fake bird calls. I'd like to tell her about my friend in Texas who I talk to about most my problems that I don't feel comfortable talking about to real life friends (and she's a great person to fangirl to too). I'd like to tell her about my friend from Michigan who I flail to about IB stuff and my other friend who goes to Yale who likes to troll but is generally nice to me. But sadly, I can't tell her about this or else the first thing she'd do is freak out and then probably try to cut me off. But really without these friends I wouldn't be the semi-stable person I am today and I wish she could get past her bias and understand how much of a good influence they are to me.

I also think my family is biased against homosexuality, blacks, and other things and that also frustrates me. When I bring up that I am friends with a lesbian couple, they begin to lecture me on how unnatural it is. They also are like "why the hell do you want to join your school's gay-lesbian-bi-transexual club?! You aren't any of the following are you? You shouldn't hang out with those types of groups!" It's also frustrating because I'm bisexual but I'll never tell them until I'm far away from home. They aren't super biased, but biased to the point that it's kinda annoying when I give them a reasonable point and then they are like "whatever my opinion is my opinion and that is final" without even an explanation on why they believe in that belief. I guess since it's been ingrained so long. But still, annoying/frustrating.

/end rant :D

Date: 2010-07-09 05:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] seynee.livejournal.com
Ah yes, I got your back there. @_@ My dad used to ask me what is it on the internet that I keep wasting my time on. It got to the point where I spent every waking hour in front of the computer, browsing, playing online games (Ragnarok, at that time. Stupid addiction indeed), or whatever it was that I liked to do. It was so bad that my dad threatened to ban my computer, and when I didn't listen, he really did. He took away my monitor for several days. Back then I didn't have a laptop so taking away my monitor would mean no computer for me, at all. I suppose if you really want to stop you should look for other things to do, other things you're comfortable with doing, to distract yourself from always using it. Like reading, for example, which is kind of more productive than just spending time on the internet? Ask your mom to help you with it, if you're really concerned about it. If my dad hadn't taken away my monitor and banned me from using the computer for several days I think I wouldn't have been able to stop...

As for your parents... my parents are like that, too. If they know that I have an LJ and that I'm pretty open about my life, they'll freak. I'm not exactly sure how to get around this, either. I know it's not nice to hide people who are important to you and it's really a dilemma. I'm not going to suggest this, but this is what I do with my parents. I tell them that I have a "friend from school", and when they ask for the friend's name, I just tell them what their names are. When they're ready (if they'll ever get ready...) I'll probably tell them the truth. @_@ It IS technically lying so I wouldn't suggest doing it, but... well.

Listening to you, I'm getting the impression that your parents are pretty traditional parents. Yeahhh, it's very frustrating when they just dismiss your opinion, especially when the reasons are "we know better than you" or "you're still too young". Maybe the next time they impose their opinions to you, you can ask them why and have a discussion or debate or the like. It usually ends with a fight every time I do that, but if you're clear-headed and you really want them to listen to you, it probably won't. Or you could pull the whole "whatever my opinion is my opinion and that is final" thing on them, because really, your opinion IS yours and that is final! /brick'd

I'm sorry I'm not much help. But good luck! ♥

Date: 2010-07-09 05:29 pm (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
Haha, yeah, my parents are pretty traditional. But they do try to be as understanding as possible. I've kinda given up the debate because they are kinda immature about it and stop talking. But for the most part they respect my beliefs to an extent (at least they haven't refused to let me go over to my friend's houses and such)

Haha, I totally pull that friend from school thing too. Or "she/he is the friend/family member of another one of my friends from school that you have never met and we met each other on the internet." I think my mom will start to wonder "why the hell does my friend have so many friends I never met" though haha

Sadly, my parents CAN'T take away the computer from me unless they want me to fail school. I have so much schoolwork that I can't possibly finish it in school and even in school I can still mess around with computers and the internet. The best thing they can do probably is to monitor me but they are always too busy to do that or fall asleep while watching. The only way I think I can overcome this is probably determination and self-discipline which is really hard P:

Date: 2010-07-10 02:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] seynee.livejournal.com
That's pretty sweet of them, to try to be as understanding as possible :) I'm glad that they at least respect your beliefs to a certain extent. That's quite something because not all parents do that.

Really? Oh wow, does she believe you? But at least you've been honest about the having friends part. :)

Ohhh. You're taking the IB, yes? That makes the whole no computer thing impossible because you really need it. Essays, research and stuff. Yeah, I've been there. @_@ Okay, let's see... how about turning off the internet immediately after you finish using it? Or use the whole reward system, I suppose. Like... "do two hours of work and I'll get 15 minutes of browsing" and actually stick to it. XD

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