spill your heart out.

[seynee]

INBOX.

Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me about your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list, and tell me why you continue to come back here. Tell me anything. Tell me what you really think of me or yourself. Anything you like.

Post anonymously. Speak honestly. Post as many times as you like ♥

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

HI.

[(Anonymous)]

I wish I could tell him how stupid he is. I mean. Really, chasing after a girl who doesn't even spare him a second glance? Wanting to wait for her FOREVER? I wish he'd just open his eyes and see what's good and what's not good for him.

I wonder why I'm not in love with him.

[seynee.livejournal.com]

Hellooooooo! ♥

[seynee.livejournal.com]

You know what? Boys. Boys. Boys. There's really no other way around it. If it really pisses you off, why don't you talk to him about it?

Not sure if we're still talking about the same him, but... do you have to be in love with him? D:

[(Anonymous)]

How are you?

[seynee.livejournal.com]

I'm really good! Thank you for asking :)
How about you?

[(Anonymous)]

That's good to hear.
Me? I could be better. But I think I'm getting there.
What do you do when you're upset?

[seynee.livejournal.com]

Aw. Feel better soon, then.
What do I do when I'm upset? Lots of things. Watch some movies, play some games, talk to people about what made me upset, read books. If I can't share my problem with anyone (or don't want to), I suppose I just do things that distract me... a lot.
Is everything okay?

[(Anonymous)]

I will try to.
Things will be okay. I just... My two best friends aren't talking to each other because of a boy and I'm like their mediator. It sucks when your two best friends share negative things about each other, because, I really don't want to know. REALLY. I love them both equally and I can't choose between the two of them. Saying things to them doesn't work out anymore and I don't know what to do!

[seynee.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm so sorry to hear that. Yeah, that really sucks, doesn't it? And making you listen to them is even more horrible. Hmm... why don't you sit down, all three of you, and work out the problem? And it's really sad that your friendship is damaged by a boy, so if he's really that involved, perhaps it's best to have him in the discussion too?

[(Anonymous)]

The thing with this boy is he's... kind of our best friend, as well. It's the usual triangle love thing, except it's really breaking us apart, and I hate him. It's not his fault, but I want to punch him because what he's done to the three of us just annoys the hell out of me. But juggling my two best friends, even if he doesn't mean it... is still a sick thing to do.

[seynee.livejournal.com]

Ah, that makes it even more complicated... but I think you really need to sort it out for once and for all, before it really breaks all of you apart. You don't want to lose your friends :(

[(Anonymous)]

No, I don't want to lose my friends. I'm SO torn. I'll talk to them together about it and tell them that I can't take being the mediator anymore.

[(Anonymous)]

reg, i wish i'm in love with someone.
i see people being in a relationship and being so happy and i really want to feel that way. i wonder why i've never been in love with anyone before...

[(Anonymous)]

I want you to know that you're an awesome person. Don't feel bad or horrible for feeling certain things for certain people, especially when they deserve it. Not all people are worthy of your kindness, so you don't have to be kind to everyone. Trust me on this, wouldn't you? (:

[(Anonymous)]

I think you're a wonderful person. I'm bad at stuff like this plus I really shouldn't be on anyway, but have a smiley.

:)

[(Anonymous)]

I'm very active on Twitter (you probably know who I am just by this sentence) and Tumblr. I like it there, but things like people always being heartbroken and feeling sad about it kind of annoy me. I know what it's like to be heartbroken, really, but to announce that you're crying all the time to the public because this one boy won't return your feelings? Yeah. Not my cup of tea.

My parents have high expectations of me and I'm so tired.

I'm glad I have friends. I wonder if it's necessary to have ONE best friend, like the special person you go to when things go awry. I don't have anyone like that. I have a bunch of friends, but not ONE special friend. I don't know.

My grades are average. I used to be more than this, but I feel like I've been... enjoying other things more that I suppose I'm starting to neglect school.

I don't really feel. I wonder why. When someone insults me, I don't feel like punching them. I just feel all "eh, whatever, it's their business what they think of me". I laugh, but I mostly laugh because everybody else laughs. It's a bit confusing. It doesn't bother me all that much, but should it bother me that nothing really bothers me?

Long comment. Sorry.

[(Anonymous)]

Relationships aren't always happy, Anon. Love isn't always requited. Once it is, it might be that happy phase for a while, but that happiness doesn't last forever.

I'm sorry I'm cynical about love. I just am.

[(Anonymous)]

I wish I can be more of myself here. I don't understand why I find it really hard while other people seem to do it effortlessly. It's the Internet, self, it really can't get any easier than this. But it's hard for me, I don't know why. Is something wrong with the way I think?

[(Anonymous)]

Hii! Different anon here

I can absolutely empathize with the parents thing. I'm kinda banging my head about this as well. And I'm also sorta neglecting school but I think it's worth it if I judge that I'm having enough fun in the neglect time.

And I don't think it's necessary to have one best friend. I have a lot of different friends I go to (well, 3-4) depending on what subject it is. Just having one best friend is no fun and there's no ONE special friend that I go to all the time.

[(Anonymous)]

I'm so frustrated with my addiction to the internet. I want to focus on school, having a social life, SLEEPING, and doing other much more productive things. But whenever I get scared or uncertain, I fall back into mindlessly surfing the internet. I'm really disgusted at myself for that and I wish I could stop it but I've been highly unsuccessful so far. Stupid addiction :(

Also, I wish I could tell my family about my internet family but...that wouldn't turn out well at all. My parents are way too biased and think that everyone online is a rapist/has bad intentions. I have so many good memories with my internet family (or group or whatever) and so many stories that I want to share with my mom but I can't. I'd like to meet some of them too or mail them stuff but I would never be able to without my parent's approval. I wouldn't meet every random person on the internet of course, just those that I have known for 2+ years and highly trust. I'd like to tell my mom of my friend in Columbia who has helped me so much with my spanish work. I'd like to tell her about my friend from Canada who's like my eccentric big sister who's really talented at art and doing fake bird calls. I'd like to tell her about my friend in Texas who I talk to about most my problems that I don't feel comfortable talking about to real life friends (and she's a great person to fangirl to too). I'd like to tell her about my friend from Michigan who I flail to about IB stuff and my other friend who goes to Yale who likes to troll but is generally nice to me. But sadly, I can't tell her about this or else the first thing she'd do is freak out and then probably try to cut me off. But really without these friends I wouldn't be the semi-stable person I am today and I wish she could get past her bias and understand how much of a good influence they are to me.

I also think my family is biased against homosexuality, blacks, and other things and that also frustrates me. When I bring up that I am friends with a lesbian couple, they begin to lecture me on how unnatural it is. They also are like "why the hell do you want to join your school's gay-lesbian-bi-transexual club?! You aren't any of the following are you? You shouldn't hang out with those types of groups!" It's also frustrating because I'm bisexual but I'll never tell them until I'm far away from home. They aren't super biased, but biased to the point that it's kinda annoying when I give them a reasonable point and then they are like "whatever my opinion is my opinion and that is final" without even an explanation on why they believe in that belief. I guess since it's been ingrained so long. But still, annoying/frustrating.

/end rant :D

[seynee.livejournal.com]

I think it's best to do that. Good luck, and if you need someone to talk to or if there's something I can help you with, I'm here. ♥

[seynee.livejournal.com]

I would agree with the other Anon and say that relationships aren't always happy, just as love isn't always requited. But I would also agree with you with the whole wondering thing, because I also do. Wonder why I've never felt that way for anyone, that is. I'm sure it's normal, so... just relax about it, okay?

Your time will hopefully come, and I'm sure you'll find someone you feel that way for. :)

[seynee.livejournal.com]

Thank you so very much! ♥
And yes. Yes, I'd trust you on this. :)

[seynee.livejournal.com]

Thank you! It really means a lot to me that at least someone out there thinks this way :)