spill your heart out.

[seynee]

INBOX.

Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me about your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list, and tell me why you continue to come back here. Tell me anything. Tell me what you really think of me or yourself. Anything you like.

Post anonymously. Speak honestly. Post as many times as you like ♥

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

HI.

[(Anonymous)]

I wish I could tell him how stupid he is. I mean. Really, chasing after a girl who doesn't even spare him a second glance? Wanting to wait for her FOREVER? I wish he'd just open his eyes and see what's good and what's not good for him.

I wonder why I'm not in love with him.

[(Anonymous)]

reg, i wish i'm in love with someone.
i see people being in a relationship and being so happy and i really want to feel that way. i wonder why i've never been in love with anyone before...

[(Anonymous)]

I want you to know that you're an awesome person. Don't feel bad or horrible for feeling certain things for certain people, especially when they deserve it. Not all people are worthy of your kindness, so you don't have to be kind to everyone. Trust me on this, wouldn't you? (:

[(Anonymous)]

I think you're a wonderful person. I'm bad at stuff like this plus I really shouldn't be on anyway, but have a smiley.

:)

[(Anonymous)]

I'm very active on Twitter (you probably know who I am just by this sentence) and Tumblr. I like it there, but things like people always being heartbroken and feeling sad about it kind of annoy me. I know what it's like to be heartbroken, really, but to announce that you're crying all the time to the public because this one boy won't return your feelings? Yeah. Not my cup of tea.

My parents have high expectations of me and I'm so tired.

I'm glad I have friends. I wonder if it's necessary to have ONE best friend, like the special person you go to when things go awry. I don't have anyone like that. I have a bunch of friends, but not ONE special friend. I don't know.

My grades are average. I used to be more than this, but I feel like I've been... enjoying other things more that I suppose I'm starting to neglect school.

I don't really feel. I wonder why. When someone insults me, I don't feel like punching them. I just feel all "eh, whatever, it's their business what they think of me". I laugh, but I mostly laugh because everybody else laughs. It's a bit confusing. It doesn't bother me all that much, but should it bother me that nothing really bothers me?

Long comment. Sorry.

[(Anonymous)]

I wish I can be more of myself here. I don't understand why I find it really hard while other people seem to do it effortlessly. It's the Internet, self, it really can't get any easier than this. But it's hard for me, I don't know why. Is something wrong with the way I think?

[(Anonymous)]

I'm so frustrated with my addiction to the internet. I want to focus on school, having a social life, SLEEPING, and doing other much more productive things. But whenever I get scared or uncertain, I fall back into mindlessly surfing the internet. I'm really disgusted at myself for that and I wish I could stop it but I've been highly unsuccessful so far. Stupid addiction :(

Also, I wish I could tell my family about my internet family but...that wouldn't turn out well at all. My parents are way too biased and think that everyone online is a rapist/has bad intentions. I have so many good memories with my internet family (or group or whatever) and so many stories that I want to share with my mom but I can't. I'd like to meet some of them too or mail them stuff but I would never be able to without my parent's approval. I wouldn't meet every random person on the internet of course, just those that I have known for 2+ years and highly trust. I'd like to tell my mom of my friend in Columbia who has helped me so much with my spanish work. I'd like to tell her about my friend from Canada who's like my eccentric big sister who's really talented at art and doing fake bird calls. I'd like to tell her about my friend in Texas who I talk to about most my problems that I don't feel comfortable talking about to real life friends (and she's a great person to fangirl to too). I'd like to tell her about my friend from Michigan who I flail to about IB stuff and my other friend who goes to Yale who likes to troll but is generally nice to me. But sadly, I can't tell her about this or else the first thing she'd do is freak out and then probably try to cut me off. But really without these friends I wouldn't be the semi-stable person I am today and I wish she could get past her bias and understand how much of a good influence they are to me.

I also think my family is biased against homosexuality, blacks, and other things and that also frustrates me. When I bring up that I am friends with a lesbian couple, they begin to lecture me on how unnatural it is. They also are like "why the hell do you want to join your school's gay-lesbian-bi-transexual club?! You aren't any of the following are you? You shouldn't hang out with those types of groups!" It's also frustrating because I'm bisexual but I'll never tell them until I'm far away from home. They aren't super biased, but biased to the point that it's kinda annoying when I give them a reasonable point and then they are like "whatever my opinion is my opinion and that is final" without even an explanation on why they believe in that belief. I guess since it's been ingrained so long. But still, annoying/frustrating.

/end rant :D

[(Anonymous)]

I really envy my cousin.

She's one of the best girls around. She's friendly, plays the piano extremely well, won some contests, had some recitals. People invite her to play for them. She's amazingly thin and keeps her figure well. I don't know if she's pretty because I don't think so, but to people she might be pretty. Long hair, large eyes, those stuff. She's liked by people. She was Prom Queen and she won debates without having to prepare for them.

I wish I'm more like that, you know? I've been told I'm nice and quite good-looking, but I wish I have her talents, her personality. Instead I'm just this ordinary person she outshines without even having to try.

[(Anonymous)]

I want to be THIN.

[(Anonymous)]

We used to be 'friends' here. I can't remember which of us friended the other first or even who you are really, but I was just going back to look over some poetry or some pictures or something in some long forgotten entry, and I found one of your comments. It was when I was having a tough time with something, and you were so strong for me.

You seemed so brave and larger than life, and I can't even remember you outside of that paragraph of hope that you left for me. I checked around and didn't see any other comments from you around that time, but I had to have friended you - my LJ has always been locked.

I can't remember defriending you either, but you're not in my list of friends anymore and that comment is two years old now and none of our interests are the same.

I don't miss you because I don't even remember you, but I think I might miss what we could have been. Maybe you and I could have been amazing friends, or maybe it was just fated that we not recall one another, like shooting stars crossing trails. I'm sorry for whatever it was I did that caused us to drift apart. Thank you for supporting me when I needed it. If nothing else, know that I loved you for that moment.

[(Anonymous)]

Are you still reading these? Do you still want stories?

8D

[(Anonymous)]

I WORSHIP YOU. :)
...in that non-stalker-ish way. >D

I don't know, but your writing style makes me...inspired?
When I saw your old account on FFN, and seeing how much you changed and got better, I felt like I could do the same thing.
So, thank you for that. C:

[[The Sky's Bouquet @ FFN]]

[(Anonymous)]

You're nice to everyone. I admire that from you. You never treat people badly, even if they (might) deserve it, and you never seem to think bad of other people. That's one quality I'd like to have because I always manage to think about people negatively... well, most people, that is. I don't know. Sometimes I think something is wrong with me, you know? I don't find it hard to see the good in people, but I find it way easier to see the bad in them. And there always is some bad in them...

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I LOVE YOU-

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-AND I DON'T NEED TO BE ANON TO SAY THAT-

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YOU ARE THE BEST THING THAT'S EVER BEEN MINE.

OH YEAH BABY.

hi

[(Anonymous)]

hi, I might be just another random anon here but I admire your writing
I got lots of inspiration from your writing, thanks a lot
again, hi :)

[(Anonymous)]

RAH RAH AH AH AH
ROMA ROMA MA
GAGA OO LALA

Seriously. This needs no explanation.

hi

[(Anonymous)]

hi there! just want to say that i really do love your writing and it really inspires me so much. especially that Pepsi Theory :)

hope to read more of you stories.

[(Anonymous)]

I don't really have much to say other than your writing is very beautiful. The way words flow in your writing is so... aesthetic? I guess. I'm not sure if that's the right word to put it. But overall, I really do like your writing.

-Derii

[(Anonymous)]

I'm sorry if I'm bothering you.

Someone online asked a question in a chat-box, and I'm pretty sure it's directed to me. She asked about pansexuality, and had ended the question with "How is it different from bi unless it includes animals and objects?"

I don't think she was deliberately being rude, but I can't help but to feel offended and even hurt by that. I'm pansexual myself, but it's not like I feel sexual affection for inanimate objects or animals. Pansexuality is about disregarding gender and loving a person for other reasons. You can call me gender-blind in the romance field.

Speaking of which, my dad's a great man. He loves me and I love him, but the one thing he won't accept about me is the fact that I'm pansexual nearing absolutely homosexual (bisexual in the norm's eyes). I can't get out of the closet in front of him now.

Thank you for putting this post up.

[(Anonymous)]

My dad thinks I'm not his child because my mom was raped. He favors my little sister and doesn't give me any time of day. Whenever we have a family vacation, he always makes me wait in the hotel while they go sight seeing. He doesn't send me to school and tells me that if I want to go to school, I should pay for my own tuition fee.

My mom practically hates me because of the rape thing. My sister doesn't care. My relatives hate me more.

The only people I can trust are my friends.

Any advice?

[(Anonymous)]

I go secretly ballistic over the smallest things. I never tell people but I feel it every time.

[(Anonymous)]

I wish more people would talk to me, here on LJ. I see you having conversations with people on your f-list, like in comment threads and all, and I think, I wish I have that.